Beneath Your Superwoman

(I'm not proud of this. At all. I finally broke, and this is what I ended up in. But I don't regret it at all, because I'm so freaking happy after all of this.)
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This room is so empty
I wish you were here
As I look at the faces
Of my new friends
Their poor, tortured hearts
Their bruises
So much greater than mine.

It’s so bleak and solemn
As their strong façades fade
I can see that they’re broken
In so many ways.

This room is so quiet
I can hear myself shaking
But swear my shell won’t crack
Cause the hurt behind it
Might kill me
“Tell us,” Marguerite invites
Here, it’s okay to share.

It’s so bleak and solemn
As their strong façades fade
I can see that they’re broken
In so many ways.

This room is so sad
Smiles are scarce to none
I feel the crack
The plunge, as my heart opens
And I fall to the floor
I wish you were here to catch me
As all that hurt
Bubbles up like lava
Memories, they burn me.

It’s so bleak and solemn
When my façade fades
They all see I’m broken
In every single way.

Believe

This one's for you, Mom. I owe my great life now to you. Thanks, Mom. Even though you hurt me every day, you've made me who I am.

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Mother dear, don’t you see me cry?
Tears roll down, with a broken sigh
Mother dear, don’t you know?
I should have already let you go

It’s been so long
Since that fateful day
The night when you forever ran away
But I still love you with all my heart
I wish we hadn’t grown apart

I want someday, to see you again
In hopes that the holes in my heart will mend
I wish you could say you miss me, too
There’s not much more for me you could do

There are days when I think my tears will run out
When all my thoughts are of fear and doubt
There are times when it truly seems
That I’ll never, ever escape my dreams

No one understands this pain I’ve had
And for that I can be nothing but glad
I couldn’t wish upon others a hurt so deep
Like the memories that always take my sleep

Nowadays I just try to forget
But that’s something that my mind won’t let
And even though my feelings are numb
I’m still so proud of how far I’ve come

With some help from a dear friend
I know someday these nights will end
And I’ll be something better than this
Even if it’s you I miss

Mother dear, you can’t see me cry
Or sit and watch as my tears dry
But, mother dear, I’ll shine and glow
Maybe I don’t have to let you go.

What I See ?

It took me some time
To remember this well
Knowing these stories
That I often must tell.

It was like I forgot
Of happiness and fun
The night she took pills
And said she was done.

Or the nights filled with tears
Against the pain I fought
Searching and searching
For the answers I sought.

Or those phone calls she cried
Saying he hurt her so
As my tears ran too
Only daybreak saw them slow.

But now what I see
Is how to have fun
Over all my sorrows
I feel I’ve won.

I know what it’s like
When you understand
How you promised me love
And took me by the hand.

And I remember what it means
When a promise is kept
And though it may hurt
This pain I accept.

‘Cause if it means I’m with you
I’ll make my troubles all end
‘Cause you brought me happiness
And you’re my best friend.